Good Grief

Lately I've been slacking on both my blogging and my gifts. I have had a lot on my plate lately, and even more recently have been devastated by an unfortunate misunderstanding and lack of trust with someone I love so deeply and sincerely.  I made a foolish decision which sparked the distrust this person had for me, and it has been so hurtful and unbelievable for me.

However heartbreaking this situation is for me, I am using it as blocks for me to climb higher on and am thanking God for this gift. I know that the love I shared with that person was so wonderful and beautiful and true, and I can only be grateful for that. Its not so often we find that and are allowed to experience it, and for a while I was filled with it. What a gift that is!

Sometimes we lose things we love, but we have to know that even the loss itself is a gift. We are put through trials and are broken down so we can rebuild and come out stronger, wiser and more capable of love, giving and humility in the end. We learn from our mistakes and make choices that will help us become better people with more open hearts and more conscious minds. I'm looking forward to learning from the mistakes I have made and making new and healthier decisions for me.

Speaking of making new decisions, I am going to give myself the gift of doing more things that better me as a person. The first thing I am going to do is quit drinking alcohol all together. Even though I don't do it much to begin with, lately its caused me to make unhealthy choices, and I've not been responsible. I don't want to be that person. I am better than that person. In addition to this choice, I am also going to drive the energy I have built up for my sorrows and channel it into working out and volunteering. I'm excited to begin volunteering! There are so many wonderful causes I can get involved with, and I'll be sure to keep you all updated on what I decide to do!

The reason I want to volunteer is because it helps you step outside of yourself, of your own problems, when you give your time and care to someone else. It humbles you and grounds you, causes to see things on a bigger scale and have a clearer mind. These are definitely things I could use right now!

I'll be sure to update. Thanks for taking the time to read my blog and to share in my experiences. :-)

Giving Time

Every day I thank the highest power of Love for all the wonderful gifts I have in my life, and I am often overwhelmed with the incredible joy of having people who love you. And I also notice that the more I give my love to others, the more I get it back, genuinely. Which is a big part why I am making this conscious decision to GIVE every day. I already am seeing changes!

My gift today was time spent with a friend. Make that quality time. A friend of mine texted me asking if I wanted to meet up in the evening, and I figured it would be a good opportunity for me to give my time and energy to my friend for a little time. I stayed longer than I expected and it turned out to be a gift for myself as well! I had a great time milling around with him, and then having a wonderful, rich and open conversation. My gift to him was also my gift to myself!

As I'm doing this, some days I get worried I won't have time to give. But then I remember when I was reading about the 29 days of giving, how the gifts can be as small as a hug or a smile or a phone call, as long as they come from a giving place. I'm seeing how being conscious about giving is helping me see people more, notice them more and look at them with a more open-heart. People I may not have noticed before I'm looking at and feeling their energy. It's definitely allowing me to connect better with those around me - something I'm always happy to grow on!

I hope you guys who are reading are thinking more about giving in your life and will take the 29 day challenge. Also, give to yourself. And let the gifts come from love!

All the best :-)

Prayer as Gifts

So now I'm behind a day on my blogging...so I will start off first by saying what I did yesterday. My gift to someone else was a prayer, a prayer I prayed out loud to God. I'm finding that when I pray out loud, things are clearer, and I feel more meaning in my own words. Does that make sense? I also prayed for myself. That was my gift for myself.

Today, my gifts were the same as yesterday's. I prayed both for myself, and for someone I love so much. Although I'm going to try and expand my giving, I'm seeing how incredible daily prayer is, and how powerful it is to pray out loud. It separates what you want to say and ask from the constant run-ons in your mind. Gives you a chance to hear clearly what it is you are saying to God.

I know my blogging has been short recently, but I'll expand soon. I've been busy and finding time to write is difficult, as I want my writings to be honest and that takes peace and time. If you are on a giving journey, please share with me!